100% Pure Alberta Beef

An interesting realization today - I don't really like hamburgers. Not frozen patty ones anyways. I went downtown today to take part in a Taste Panel for the Consumer Product Testing Center. The product in questions was hamburgers. You had to look at five raw patties and evaluate their overall appearance and then taste samples of the five cooked patties and evaluate taste and whatnot. And it was kind of gross. They were mostly very dry and chewy and lacking in flavour. But it was pretty much the easiest $10 I've ever made, so I can't complain so much. I signed up for their list of people to contact for future panels as well so maybe next time it'll be a tastier product. Or at least a less chewy product. I think I'm going to go find something else to eat now.

By the way, if anyone is wondering, I go back to work at the bookstore tommorow with part-time hours. So I have a lot of free time on my hands this month. I'm probably going to drop off my application at Blockbuster tommorow as I think I'll go nuts with this much free time. I just don't /do/ boredom well. But until that works itself out, I'm fairly free time wise. Just in case anyone wanted to know.

Good song lyrics. "Just Want You" by Ozzy Osbourne:

There are no unlockable doors
There are no unwinable wars
There are no unrightable wrongs
Or unsignable songs

There are no unbeatable odds
There are no believable gods
There are no unnameable names
Shall I say it again, yeah

There are no impossible dreams
There are no invisible seams
Each night when the day is through
I don’t ask much
I just want you

Home Again, Home Again

The Pixie has returned to her nest, for those who haven't heard. I finished up my contract with Wildfire at the end of January, then spent two weeks with my fabulous friend Alyssa in Peterborough, and then went to Tulum, Mexico for one week for my uncle's wedding, and now I'm home for good.

I haven't decided how exactly I feel about this yet, but the adjustment is going slowly. It's nice to be able to sleep in my own bed, to pick clothes out of drawers instead of a suitcase, and to have an endless supply of books. But it's also really wierd and hard. I miss my Wildfire family so much. I spent the past five months with them 24/7 and suddenly their all gone. And the worst is that most of them are still touring so I can't even get a hold of them. Alyssa is the only one I still talk to and she's dealing with enough of her own stuff. Plus, all of my friends here in Edmonton seem to have new lives that don't involve me. I mean, I really want to see my old friends again - people from high school, old boyfriends, other LRPers, etc - it feels awkward to try and reinsert myself into their lives.

Which leaves me sitting at home, contemplating how to productively fill my days, and waiting to go back to work. I start again on the 1st and am hoping that I'll be getting full-time hours but I don't know. If it's only part-time, I'm thinking of applying at the Blockbuster near my house. It'd be a decent job for small amounts of time and you get 10 free rentals a week, which would be cool.

Other than that, I'm trying to prepare myself for the fact that my birthday is coming up rather rapidly, trying to sort through my too large collection of books (though, truthfully, it is not a case of too many books as too few bookshelves), and trying to come up with the energy to go back to Capoeira. As Jess would say, le sigh! But the positive side of all this is that the large amounts of time on my hands has prompted me to revive this weblog. So hopefully this revival will last and there will be more posts in the near future. I don't honestly know that anyone reads this anymore, but it's really more for me than for them so it doesn't matter. Everyone needs somewhere where they feel safe to just talk, or vent, or anything. And so, we begin again...