Wet

I love long, hot showers. I don't know when this began - I never used to like showers at all, hot or cold - but somewhere along the line, I fell in love with the feeling of hot water pouring over top of me. I suspect that it had something to do with going days without showering during Wildfire, to the point that you had salt literally caked on your skin. Or maybe it was showering in Mexico where the water was as cold as ice and you could only use it for five minutes. Or maybe it was when I moved out and it was my shower, in my bathroom, in my house and it invoked a feeling of independance. Who knows. It's not like my shower is really that great. It's usually kind of dirty and there's no water pressure, and pretty much without fail, at some point during my shower, somebody will start using the hot water elsewhre in the house. But it's still one of the best parts of my day. *happy sigh* I like showers..

In other news, I have officially accomplished absolutely nothing today to contribute to life or the world in general. That is to say, I watched a lot of "Dark Angel" and ignored the world. It was... kind of nice. I knew there was a lot of stuff I needed to do or should have been doing, but I just couldn't be bothered. It's my day off and I wanted to be lazy and useless. I'll probably regret this decision later this week when I'm trying to fit a million things in inbetween work and having a life but at this particular moment, I do not feel any remorse. As Ridvan would always say, "No pity. No remorse." Of course he also said a lot of things like, "On the battlefield there is only one commandement - Thou Shalt Kill," so who can really trust his word. It was nice to have another geek in Wildfire with me, even if he was a Warhammer geek and not a roleplaying geek. The connection was still there, albeit a little bit weaker.

So Wildfire is going to be in Edmonton at the end of the month (I think). I'm terribly excited to see everyone again - they are afterall my second family and I haven't seen them in months - but I know that it is going to be incredibly difficult. I can't imagine watching them do the show and not being a part of it; watching other people doing my parts. I mean, at least when I was injured and I had to sit shows out, I knew it was only temporary and that I would be back up there soon. And I was still a part of the group and the show even if I couldn't dance. But now... it's all different. Part of me kind of wishes they weren't coming because I know how much it's going to hurt. But it will be good to see their faces again and hear how they're doing and all that jazz. But I confess, I'm really scared. I don't want to go through losing it all again...