Home Again, Home Again
The Pixie has returned to her nest, for those who haven't heard. I finished up my contract with Wildfire at the end of January, then spent two weeks with my fabulous friend Alyssa in Peterborough, and then went to Tulum, Mexico for one week for my uncle's wedding, and now I'm home for good.
I haven't decided how exactly I feel about this yet, but the adjustment is going slowly. It's nice to be able to sleep in my own bed, to pick clothes out of drawers instead of a suitcase, and to have an endless supply of books. But it's also really wierd and hard. I miss my Wildfire family so much. I spent the past five months with them 24/7 and suddenly their all gone. And the worst is that most of them are still touring so I can't even get a hold of them. Alyssa is the only one I still talk to and she's dealing with enough of her own stuff. Plus, all of my friends here in Edmonton seem to have new lives that don't involve me. I mean, I really want to see my old friends again - people from high school, old boyfriends, other LRPers, etc - it feels awkward to try and reinsert myself into their lives.
Which leaves me sitting at home, contemplating how to productively fill my days, and waiting to go back to work. I start again on the 1st and am hoping that I'll be getting full-time hours but I don't know. If it's only part-time, I'm thinking of applying at the Blockbuster near my house. It'd be a decent job for small amounts of time and you get 10 free rentals a week, which would be cool.
Other than that, I'm trying to prepare myself for the fact that my birthday is coming up rather rapidly, trying to sort through my too large collection of books (though, truthfully, it is not a case of too many books as too few bookshelves), and trying to come up with the energy to go back to Capoeira. As Jess would say, le sigh! But the positive side of all this is that the large amounts of time on my hands has prompted me to revive this weblog. So hopefully this revival will last and there will be more posts in the near future. I don't honestly know that anyone reads this anymore, but it's really more for me than for them so it doesn't matter. Everyone needs somewhere where they feel safe to just talk, or vent, or anything. And so, we begin again...
The Pixie has returned to her nest, for those who haven't heard. I finished up my contract with Wildfire at the end of January, then spent two weeks with my fabulous friend Alyssa in Peterborough, and then went to Tulum, Mexico for one week for my uncle's wedding, and now I'm home for good.
I haven't decided how exactly I feel about this yet, but the adjustment is going slowly. It's nice to be able to sleep in my own bed, to pick clothes out of drawers instead of a suitcase, and to have an endless supply of books. But it's also really wierd and hard. I miss my Wildfire family so much. I spent the past five months with them 24/7 and suddenly their all gone. And the worst is that most of them are still touring so I can't even get a hold of them. Alyssa is the only one I still talk to and she's dealing with enough of her own stuff. Plus, all of my friends here in Edmonton seem to have new lives that don't involve me. I mean, I really want to see my old friends again - people from high school, old boyfriends, other LRPers, etc - it feels awkward to try and reinsert myself into their lives.
Which leaves me sitting at home, contemplating how to productively fill my days, and waiting to go back to work. I start again on the 1st and am hoping that I'll be getting full-time hours but I don't know. If it's only part-time, I'm thinking of applying at the Blockbuster near my house. It'd be a decent job for small amounts of time and you get 10 free rentals a week, which would be cool.
Other than that, I'm trying to prepare myself for the fact that my birthday is coming up rather rapidly, trying to sort through my too large collection of books (though, truthfully, it is not a case of too many books as too few bookshelves), and trying to come up with the energy to go back to Capoeira. As Jess would say, le sigh! But the positive side of all this is that the large amounts of time on my hands has prompted me to revive this weblog. So hopefully this revival will last and there will be more posts in the near future. I don't honestly know that anyone reads this anymore, but it's really more for me than for them so it doesn't matter. Everyone needs somewhere where they feel safe to just talk, or vent, or anything. And so, we begin again...
I haven't decided how exactly I feel about this yet, but the adjustment is going slowly. It's nice to be able to sleep in my own bed, to pick clothes out of drawers instead of a suitcase, and to have an endless supply of books. But it's also really wierd and hard. I miss my Wildfire family so much. I spent the past five months with them 24/7 and suddenly their all gone. And the worst is that most of them are still touring so I can't even get a hold of them. Alyssa is the only one I still talk to and she's dealing with enough of her own stuff. Plus, all of my friends here in Edmonton seem to have new lives that don't involve me. I mean, I really want to see my old friends again - people from high school, old boyfriends, other LRPers, etc - it feels awkward to try and reinsert myself into their lives.
Which leaves me sitting at home, contemplating how to productively fill my days, and waiting to go back to work. I start again on the 1st and am hoping that I'll be getting full-time hours but I don't know. If it's only part-time, I'm thinking of applying at the Blockbuster near my house. It'd be a decent job for small amounts of time and you get 10 free rentals a week, which would be cool.
Other than that, I'm trying to prepare myself for the fact that my birthday is coming up rather rapidly, trying to sort through my too large collection of books (though, truthfully, it is not a case of too many books as too few bookshelves), and trying to come up with the energy to go back to Capoeira. As Jess would say, le sigh! But the positive side of all this is that the large amounts of time on my hands has prompted me to revive this weblog. So hopefully this revival will last and there will be more posts in the near future. I don't honestly know that anyone reads this anymore, but it's really more for me than for them so it doesn't matter. Everyone needs somewhere where they feel safe to just talk, or vent, or anything. And so, we begin again...
5 Comments:
At 9:35 AM, Anonymous said…
Welcome home. I thought I'd say it again here, since I missed seeing you when you were back for break. Don't feel too awkward coming back into our lives, we're happy to have you inserted.
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At 5:34 PM, Tinkerbell said…
Welcome home Jeanne!!!
At 6:33 PM, Jessica said…
Yay, she's back in cyberspace! Woot. I got your postcard from Tulum, by the way, and it looks very cool. :) I hope your transition to being home again goes happily.
At 3:52 AM, Shani said…
Welcome home!
It takes time to try and readjust to things, a coupel fo things to remember:
1: You've changed and grown, you've experienced things that some people here have never experienced, and seen things. This is good.
2: People here have changed and grown, this is also good
3: You have friends here, who even though you weren't here physically, ahd you in their hearts, and would love to catch up with you.
At 4:15 PM, waaaaaaally said…
Wheeeee!
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