There are times when I look at the earth, and I just don't want to live on it anymore. It's too terrible. I watched a movie for social today. Breaker Morant. It was about the court martial of three soldiers during the Boer War. At the end, two of the soldiers were sentanced to execution. Just as dawn was breaking, and the world was in that moment of absolute beauty that comes as the sun rises, they marched these men out into a field, and sat them down, on dining room table chairs, and then shot them. It made me sick to my stomach. The blast was enough to make them fly backwards off those chairs, and ripped their chests open. It's knowing that stuff like that happened, happens and will always happen, that makes me want to give up. How can I live in a world like that? I feel sick just thinking about it.

The same thing happened last social movie. I was in tears, and wanted to throw up it was so terrible. The Mission. It was about the missions in South America. One of them, they tried to fight back when tey were under threat of being shut down. They were all killed. Every one. The women and the children, and the men. They burned the village to the ground. And the people just prayed. Just sat there and prayed, as the soldiers killed them, or took them for slave labour. How? How does this happen? How do we let this happen?

What's wrong with our world?