*Sigh*

That is how I am feeling right now. It is not how I /want/ to be feeling, but it is. I don't particularily know why either. I had really long talks with Angel yesterday (the same subject I was talking to Cara about) that was good, and hung out with cool people at BPs, and got a cool offer from Breagon, and had good talk with Eric. But still.... I don't know.

On the plus side, I went out for dinner with Josh, Angel and Mike and it was wonderful and tasty and romantic and cool. It was so nice to go out with friends for something ... Oh I don't know what I'm even trying to say. I have this whole bunch of thoughts rushing around, and emotions swirling, and Adi keeps trying to have conversations with me. I love talking to her but it occasionally seems ... off. At least it's only her, and not all four of them today. They get to be so much sometimes. They make my head hurt.

They broke my brain yesterday.Both Jeanne's brain, and Adi's brain. Poor kid. She is so wrecked right now. It's tough to be her somedays. I wish I could help her, I really do, but I can only have so many conversations with her to try. She has this... fear and doubt and pain all built up inside and is trying desperately to deal with the fact that her life is not a complete waste. And I don't know how to convince her that she is an amazing person with a brilliant future and the chance to have a long, happy, loving life.

But maybe that has something to do with the fact that she lives in my head...

"I'm a poster girl with no poster."

Eight days... ish.

Edited to add: Found the words to describe how I'm feeling - shattered glass slipper.