Well that's the end. The show is over and we've all said our goodbyes. I cried so hard. When I held Kristen, Lexie and Marnie, I could barely control myself from collapsing. I never realized how much they had come to mean to me. And all the others, Taryn, Erin, Diane, Chelsea... they are these amazing people who meant so much to me. When I started the show, I was lost. Looking for somewhere to fit in. People to accept me. And I found it. It was as if they opened their arms and said, "Yes come in. We have this lovely Jeanne sized spot right here." And I felt warm, safe, and loved. For four months I belonged. I had a reason and a purpose. I knew that there were people who cared deeply about me. And now that's all gone. Gone as quickly as it came. And I'm left alone, waiting, hoping it may come back. When I hugged him goodbye he said "We'll see eachother again." I said "probably not." For that is the truth. The truth is that I probably won't see him again. I doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would. But maybe that's because somewhere deep inside I believe with all my being that I will see again. *sniff* I wish the show had never closed.