!!!!!! She forgave me! She forgave me! I'm just so happy I could cry. Although that could be other things. Christmas is coming... and that always makes me feel stressed. I never want to offend anyone but I don't have a lot of money. I just want to get presents for my close friends, but I have so many friends who aren't super close that I'd feel horrible. Also, we have this English presentation tommorrow and we've seen half of them already and ours is going to look so stupid in comparison (sp?). Plus I haven't been doing ANY of my work in Science and my English mark has dropped to a 78%. School just isn't worth it anymore! I hate going there so much and it stresses me to the max.
On a slightly different topic: Laura asked me who I liked yesterday. Yah it sounds juvenile, but it got me thinking. Ever since I broke things off with Justin... there just hasn't been anyone. I love being with my guy friends, and hell I love flirting, but nothing serious. And it makes me very very sad, because I just see all these couples and I'm so jealous. Even the horrible couples, that you know will never last. And I'm sure that if I wanted it, I could have a boyfriend easily. James, Matt, Jason, Justin (*random thought - lots of J names*), Brad, or even *shudder* Matthew. And as much as I love most of them, I don't want something that I know will end. And they always will end. I've always been the person who said "when" instead of "if." Talk about pessimism. I want something real. Something serious. I see Star and Eric... Hell, I see Liz and Dave and it hurts. Because they have someone who cares about them so much and wants to spend the rest of their lives with them... maybe that's what I get for hanging around with my 20-some friends so much... I expect so much. And yah, I know that isn't fair but hell, a girl can dream can't she? But what happens, when that dreaming is hurting your life? Why can't I be normal!?! Is there a normal? I was reading Cora's blog and god, she is so superficial. It amazes me. I hate stupid, and/or superficial people. There are people around with real problems and real troubles, and you are complaining about your locker. *sigh* Talk about people with their priorities sorted out. And yet I envy them... Ha, how's that for ironic?
On a slightly different topic: Laura asked me who I liked yesterday. Yah it sounds juvenile, but it got me thinking. Ever since I broke things off with Justin... there just hasn't been anyone. I love being with my guy friends, and hell I love flirting, but nothing serious. And it makes me very very sad, because I just see all these couples and I'm so jealous. Even the horrible couples, that you know will never last. And I'm sure that if I wanted it, I could have a boyfriend easily. James, Matt, Jason, Justin (*random thought - lots of J names*), Brad, or even *shudder* Matthew. And as much as I love most of them, I don't want something that I know will end. And they always will end. I've always been the person who said "when" instead of "if." Talk about pessimism. I want something real. Something serious. I see Star and Eric... Hell, I see Liz and Dave and it hurts. Because they have someone who cares about them so much and wants to spend the rest of their lives with them... maybe that's what I get for hanging around with my 20-some friends so much... I expect so much. And yah, I know that isn't fair but hell, a girl can dream can't she? But what happens, when that dreaming is hurting your life? Why can't I be normal!?! Is there a normal? I was reading Cora's blog and god, she is so superficial. It amazes me. I hate stupid, and/or superficial people. There are people around with real problems and real troubles, and you are complaining about your locker. *sigh* Talk about people with their priorities sorted out. And yet I envy them... Ha, how's that for ironic?
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