Best friends aren't suppose to fight all the time, right? They are suppose to console each other over the fact that they are at outs with the rest of the world, right? So why is it that the people I fight with the most are you two? I say I'm sorry and try to explain, to tell you but sometimes you don't want to listen. You just want to be angry. I get that... I want to be angry sometimes too. But as our parents and teachers and adult-type people have always told us, communication is the key. You have to listen to each other; hear each other out. I know that this time it was my fault, and I let you guys down but it's hard sometimes. Do you get that? Life is tough. It isn't sunshine, and rainbows and lollipops, as much as we want it to be. But if we fight instead of helping each other it'll just get worse. Remember how many happy times we have? And how much it sucks when we fight or when we stop talking? If we don't forgive eachother it'll always be like that, but a thousand times worse, because it would never come back. We'd never have each other again. I survived before you guys came along, luckily, but now I need you. I didn't need someone like you before. Now... now I get scared without you, hurt without you. You guys may not be the only people in the world with problems, but you're the only ones who get MY problems. So I'm sorry, like I said, I didn't mean to hurt you and let you down. And I hope you won't stay mad too long. You're my best friends...


To Erin: Please email me or call me because I never seem to catch you on MSN. I need to know when you are coming to visit so I can clear it with the parental types. Thanks sweetie, *love*